Archive for July, 2009
Message from Archangel Michael
August 2009 * LM-8-2009
“BECOMING YOUR AUTHENTIC SELF”
Transmitted Through Ronna Herman
Beloved masters, the great drama of the present era is swiftly coming to a close. Every soul on Earth is in the midst of a major transformation process regardless of whether they are aware of it or not. The precious souls who are still stuck in the limitations of the third- and fourth-dimensional illusion are having a difficult time maintaining the status quo. Those who are caught up in a poverty-consciousness reality find that it is more difficult than ever to create abundance; and for many, even their limited source of income has diminished or disappeared. Relationships are suffering as ego-driven conflicts become more intense and frequent. Self-doubt and dissatisfaction with life are rampant as the Light of Creation bombards the mass consciousness belief paradigm of fear, bigotry, greed, judgment, limitation and lack of confidence or a distorted sense of self-worth.
As your old world fades away into the past, your new reality keeps expanding, for it includes a greater awareness of the workings of the universe, an elaborate sense of who you have been in the past and a vision of the vast potential for the future. Those of you who are firmly on the path of ascension are being asked to examine any residual negative thought forms of the past as well as any impacted energy that is keeping you from incorporating the maximum amount of Creator Light. Ascension is an ever-unfolding process of refinement and expansion. You observe, discern, release or absorb, integrate, and then radiate the vibrational patterns of the higher concepts and truths that have been made available to you. With each higher energy infusion, your Energetic Signature is modified and fine-tuned so that you are projecting out into your force-field and the world the refined frequencies of Light that you have claimed as your own.
Beloveds, you are aware that there are monumental changes occurring within you and all around you. You are being giving many opportunities and challenges to realign yourself with your fifth-dimensional Self. Yes, you have at least one fragment /God Spark and most likely multiple Sparks of your God Self in each of the many dimensions and sub-dimensions. When you fragmented into smaller and smaller sparks of your Divine Self and went forth to fulfill the command from our Father / Mother God, a universal design was created so that you would have a pathway back into the rarified realms of this universe. Pyramids of Light or way-stations were placed throughout the universe in every level of creation. We have spoken of the Pyramids of Light for several years now; however, many of you still do not understand how important they are in the process of ascension. We have asked you to visit often the World Pyramid of Light in the higher fifth dimension and to share your Creator Love/Light with the world and humanity. It is a most wondrous gift to state your intention by saying, “I ask for the greatest good for the Earth, humanity and all Creation”, as you breathe in the gift of life, Adamantine Particles, activate them with your unconditional love and breathe them forth via the Infinity Breath out into the world. You must always take what you require first and share the balance with others if you wish to establish a never-ending supply of Creator energy flowing into and from you. By doing so you truly will become a pillar and a sentinel of Light. When you visit your work or personal pyramid, it speeds up the process of manifesting your visions, helps you to quickly resolve imbalanced issues and to release or rectify outmoded agreements with others. However, one of the greatest benefits is that each time you return from a visit to your fifth-dimensional Pyramids of Light you will bring down a portion of fifth-dimensional frequencies with you into your earthly surroundings. You are becoming acclimated to a fifth-dimensional environment, beloveds.
We have spoken often of your Adam/Eve Kadmon Light Body, the perfect Light Body (human blueprint), which was created by our Father/Mother God and the Elohim in the Great Central Sun of this universe. Our Father/Mother God’s Divine plan for this universe contains a never-ending variety of forms and expression, and the Kadmon Light Body is the essence of your Spirit Form which is your natural state of Being. Your God Self consists of pure God Light in a multitude of vibrant colors, geometric shapes and sound frequencies. Your spiritual nature is attuned to the rhythm and vibrational patterns of the highest level of God Consciousness in this universe. Before your journey out into the worlds of form, you were in perfect harmony with the universal laws and the will of our Father/Mother God. You could have chosen to follow the path of the Angelic or other kingdoms; however, as curious and eager souls, you chose the path of Creation and thus began your adventures into the unknown. Have we not called you brave and bold souls who answered the clarion call to journey forth into the void as members of our Legions of Light?
Your human nature has developed over time, for it has been greatly influenced by your tremendous variety of life experiences and by those around you. Your human nature should be in a constant state of change as you grow in experience and wisdom; however, many dear Souls become rigid and structured in their beliefs and, therefore, their human nature stagnates and they become close-minded. Many times the human nature becomes imbalanced as a Soul defers various lessons or experiences; such as incarnating in a female or a male body most of the time, until the time comes when they must choose the vessel in which they are the least comfortable in order to attempt to attain mental/emotional balance and also a balance in masculine and feminine traits. There can be an over- emphasis on mental abilities as well as an overactive emotional nature. These imbalanced traits have caused much of the pain and suffering in the world today because so many misguided souls have denied an intrinsic part of themselves.
Just because you are in Spirit form does not mean that you will always make the wisest decisions. Remember, you can only return to the dimensional level with which your Soul song is in harmony and attuned to. Upon leaving the earthly plane, you do not automatically become a wise Soul who knows what is best. That is why you have guides, teachers and a council who help you decide your path and what your next earthly, galactic or universal experience will be. Even in the heavenly realms you do not always take the advice given to you, thereby making the best choices.
In each incarnation you are given an opportunity to awaken to your Soul-Self. If you listen to the nudgings of Spirit, first comes the battle between the ego and the Soul-Self. This can be the longest trial, depending on how much energy you have allotted to the ego down through the ages, and how willing you are to patiently work through the process of healing and clearing past negative thought patterns. These damaging thought patterns infiltrate the mental and emotional bodies and begin to distort the auric field until, ultimately, a prison of negativity is formed around the physical body which can create a living hell. You do not have to change places to experience heaven or hell. You can experience either reality by raising or lowering your vibrational patterns.
Beloveds, you are in the midst of the most dramatic process of evolution/ascension that humanity has ever experienced. This process is affecting the entire universe; however, we are committed to assisting you to take advantage of this wondrous opportunity to return to your true State of Being, your Authentic Self, as a beloved Emissary of our Father/Mother God.
In our last message to you entitled OPENING THE SEVEN SEALS OF GOD-CONSCIOUSNESS, the SOUL STAR CHAKRA was mentioned. It has come to our attention that many of you are not familiar with the Soul Star Chakra; therefore, we will give you an explanation so that you will understand the importance of this facet of your physical vessel chakra system.
EIGHTH CHAKRA – SOUL STAR:
As you bring your chakra centers into balance (the seven major energy centers in the physical body), you develop what is called your Solar Power Center which consists of the heart/Soul/thymus gland and throat. You have an etheric Sacred Heart that resides in the center of the body at about the same level as the physical heart, but more to the back of the body, closer to the spinal column. Your Soul resides within the Sacred Heart along with your Diamond Core God Cell. After the “fall” in consciousness, much of the Essence of your Soul withdrew from the body into what has been termed the SOUL STAR, six to eight inches above the head. When you began to awaken and strive to lift your consciousness once more, you had what is called a “Soul merge”, whereby the Essence of the Soul gradually descends into the Sacred Heart center and takes up residency within the physical vessel once more. This is the beginning of the awakening /ascension process. The Eighth Chakra is the gateway to the higher dimensions. As the seven major chakras begin to spin in harmony, the Sacred Fire (Adamantine Particles) flows up the etheric column (often called the Rod of Power), which connects the chakra system to the Soul Star. This allows the gradual reunification between the multiple facets of the Oversoul with the human physical vessel. The Soul Star is actually a star tetrahedron which regulates the inflow of Creator Light into the human body.
Dear hearts, it is time for you, as ascending spiritual/human Beings to always endeavor to make the highest choices. Be an observer but not a participant of the multiple dramas that are occurring daily in your world. One of the most damaging habits that you must diligently strive to rectify is judgment of others. You are to make your choices after thoughtful deliberation and then claim the truth that is revealed to you. You must then live that truth to the best of your ability. Most everyone will have some preferences or make some choices that do not agree with your beliefs, and this is as it should be. We have told you that there are many levels of truth and many paths that lead to the same destination. A master does not judge, but quietly lives his/her truth while allowing all others to do the same. This does not mean that you are not to set boundaries or state your preferences when the need arises; however, it does mean that you walk the middle path with Spirit as your guide and love as your overlay. By doing so, you will radiate peace and harmony and you will shine your Light wherever you go. We of the realms of Light are most pleased with your progress. Join us in the World Pyramid of Light and we will convey a special blessing to you from our Father/Mother God. I am with you always.
I AM ARCHANGEL MICHAEL
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THE DIVINE PLAN IS UNFOLDING STEP BY STEP
July 13, 2009
By Patricia Diane Cota-Robles
Celestial and planetary events are unfolding in perfect synchronicity. This is in preparation for the unprecedented influx of Light that will occur the week of August 15-20, 2009. This facet of the plan is very complex and sometimes confusing, but all is in Divine Order. It is important to note that what we see on the surface is a minuscule fraction of what is actually taking place.
During the Solstice, June 21, 2009, our Central Sun, our physical Sun, and our entire Solar System experienced a quantum shift, which resulted in raising the energy, vibration, and consciousness of every particle and wave of Life evolving within this system. This increased frequency of 5th-Dimensional Solar Light activated the pre-encoded memories within Humanity’s RNA and DNA structures. These newly activated codes reflect the full potential of the Divine Masculine and the Divine Feminine within every Human Being.
It is interesting to observe that whenever it is necessary for the masses of Humanity to be involved with the Divine Plan on a more conscious level, something takes place that draws the attention of people around the globe. The outer-world event always empowers whatever is needed at the time. Humanity’s focused attention creates a cup of collective consciousness through which the Light of God can flow to accelerate the fulfillment of that particular facet the Divine Plan.
On June 25, 2009, outer-world events took place that focused the attention of people around the world on two celebrities. First was the death of Farrah Fawcett, a courageous woman whose valiant fight against cancer inspired and uplifted the hearts and minds of people everywhere. In the face of all adversity she was strong, determined, and powerful. As the collective cup of Humanity’s consciousness focused on these qualities, which are aspects of the Divine Feminine that have often been suppressed, a powerful healing occurred within every person on Earth.
A few hours later, we learned of the shocking death of Michael Jackson. This event was far more complex and drew the attention of the world in very polarizing ways. Some people focused solely on the destructive things that Michael had been accused of in his life. Others focused solely on his iconic status as the King of Pop.
The reality is that Michael’s life reflected the best and the worst of both worlds. The negative things that he was accused of reflect the degradation of the fallen masculine, and the positive things he did in his life reflect the highest aspects of the Divine Masculine within Humanity. Consequently, in this instance, the collective cup of Humanity’s consciousness held the full spectrum of masculine energies, both fallen and Divine.
On July 4th, a day dedicated to Freedom and Independence in the USA, a powerful influx of the Violet Flame bathed the Earth. Through the unified efforts of Saint Germain and Lightworkers around the world, the Violet Flame blazed through the collective cup of Humanity’s consciousness and transmuted as much of the surfacing energy associated with the fallen masculine, as Cosmic Law would allow. Through the I AM Presence, a maximum degree of purging occurred within the hearts and minds of every person on Earth. This cleared the way for the amplification of the aspects of the Divine Masculine.
On July 7th, we experienced a Full Moon Lunar Eclipse. This was the first in a series of three eclipses that will take place. The second will be the New Moon Solar Eclipse on July 22nd, and another Full Moon Lunar Eclipse that will take place August 6th. Spiritual astrologers acknowledge that the effects of these eclipses will be profound and life-changing for both Humanity and Planet Earth.
The planetary alignments associated with the July 7th eclipse empowered the manifestation of the Divine Masculine and greatly enhanced the masculine momentum of Divine Love. This is an aspect of the Divine Masculine that has been suppressed for a very long time. For Michael Jackson’s memorial service to be held in Los Angeles, California, on that day was significant and powerful.
My family and I were in Los Angeles on July 7th. We were there to attend the 100th birthday party of our Aunt Marie. Our trip had been planned months in advance, but nothing is happening by accident. As we watched the memorial service for Michael Jackson on television, we joined in consciousness with more than one billion people around the world who were also watching this event. The memorial service focused on the aspects of the Divine Masculine that Michael Jackson represented to so many millions of people.
From the time he was a child, Michael’s music and his unique dancing ability thrilled and uplifted the hearts of people all over the world. His albums broke all records and reached an all time high for global sales. His compassion and genuine love for Humanity is evident in his many good works. He is listed in the Guinness Book of World Records as the celebrity who has donated the most money to charities. In 1992, Michael had a world tour that was titled after his album “Dangerous.” This tour included 89 performances, and all of the proceeds were donated to charities. Michael’s deep love and compassion for the suffering peoples of the world are reflected in both his actions and his music. His songs “We Are The World” and “Heal The World” reflect this Truth.
On July 7th, with an estimated one billion people focusing on what they loved most about Michael Jackson, a cup of Humanity’s collective consciousness was formed that enveloped the entire planet. Through the unified efforts of embodied Lightworkers and the entire Company of Heaven, the Light of God expanded through every person’s Heart Flame. During this global event, the Love within the Divine Masculine and the Power within the Divine Feminine were restored in every facet of Life.
The Divine Masculine has always been associated with Power and the Divine Feminine has always been associated with Love. What we are seeing now is the Divine Masculine’s Power being balanced with Masculine Divine Love, and the Divine Feminine’s Love being balanced with Feminine Divine Power. This completes the preparation for the full integration of the I AM Presence within every person’s Heart Flame. This is a moment we have been working toward for aeons of time.
On July 22nd, there will be a very powerful New Moon Solar Eclipse. This is also the day that is celebrated as Mary Magdalene’s Feast Day. Mary Magdalene represents the Love Nature of Christ Consciousness, and she has held the sacred space for the return and balance of the Divine Feminine for millennia. On this day, the newly empowered Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine within every man, woman, and child on Earth will be raised into the highest frequencies of 5th-Dimensional Solar Light that we can endure. This is the initial impulse of the Transfiguration of the masses of Humanity from 4th-Dimensional carbon-based Human Beings into 5th-Dimensional crystalline-based Solar Light Beings.
From that moment forth, Humanity’s creative faculties of thought and feeling will be greatly enhanced. Our ability to cocreate the patterns of perfection for the New Earth will be amplified a thousandfold. This critical event will occur in perfect Divine Order for the next phase of the Divine Plan.
A global activity of Light is being orchestrated by Lightworkers and the Company of Heaven for July 28, 2009, at 3:19 p.m. Pacific Daylight Time, for one hour. This is the second phase of a powerful event called “Fire the Grid.” The full details of this event are posted on the website: www.firethegrid.com. I will give you some brief excerpts of that information:
“Fire the Grid is all about waking Humanity up so that we become conscious individual cells of Light. Each cell of Light radiates not only in itself, but for others as well. The second phase of Fire the Grid is about using the power of ‘I’ to unite once again to become ‘WE.’
“We will once again draw the energy of the day through us and pass it onward to Creation. This is the energy of pure potential, pure love, pure abundance and of pure creative ability. This is the united energy of millions of humans concentrating on one purpose for one hour as one mind. We will sit in contemplation of the world that will be. This is an hour of Earthly creation with the highest degree of pure intention.
“Use meditation, prayer, thought, music, intention or any tool of your choosing to manifest the world we so desire into being. Imagine millions of humans sitting, taking a stand for something better; a world of equality of balance of harmony and joy. We will gather for one hour and hold the vision of a world fed, a world of abundance for all, a world of joyful experiences.
“This world holds pure potential for all humans. With this in mind, set about seeing in your mind what that world looks like, see green fields, beautiful clear rivers and clean air. Now see abundance for everyone, see people smiling, happy, well fed, well cared for. See humans sharing and cooperating. What does that look like, you ask? Simply imagine it. Really see it in your mind. The imagination is the paintbrush of our creations. See it here during this very special energy time. See it here and dream it into being. We will collectively see it and dream it into being.
“Remember you are not alone; there are millions of us intending this new world into place. Now put details into your dream, see all of the beauty you desire. Add color and delight. The more detailed your dream, the more tangible we make our intention. See the people of the world living in harmony not only with each other but also with the planet itself. See engineering taking a turn to work with nature for the betterment of both Humanity and the Earth itself, working together for the betterment of all.
“See people all sharing in a plan to challenge the old ideas and incorporate new, better, healthier ideas. The winds of change can be directed, and this is our opportunity to consciously choose that direction. It is the time of a great gathering, a uniting of minds to create a better way, a way without exclusion. We can change the world. It begins with our hearts and minds.” (end quote)
On August 6th, we will experience the final eclipse in this series. This will be a Full Moon Lunar Eclipse. This eclipse will intensify all of the activities of Light that have taken place since the Solstice, and it will greatly empower the patterns of perfection for the New Earth that will be cocreated by Humanity during the Fire the Grid event. This eclipse will pave the way for the monumental influx of Light that will take place August 15-20, 2009, during the 22nd anniversary of Harmonic Convergence.
THE NEED OF THE HOUR
The Company of Heaven has assured us that the meltdown that is occurring in the global economy is a necessary part of Humanity’s cleansing process. For aeons of time, our monetary system has been used to manipulate, control, dominate, and abuse the peoples of the world. Now that the archetypes for God’s Infinite Abundance and Eternal Peace have been anchored in the physical plane, everything that conflicts with those patterns of perfection is being pushed to the surface to be healed and transmuted into Light.
There are people in positions of power around the planet who are scrambling to try and hold on to the old monetary system, which is crumbling before our very eyes. This obsolete paradigm was based on greed, selfishness, corruption, and the abuse of power. These behavior patterns cannot and will not be sustained within the 5th-Dimensional frequencies of the New Earth. Too many people have awakened, and as a result of this monumental shift of consciousness, the Light of God has reclaimed this Earth.
Fortunately, there are also people in positions of power who are very aware of what is taking place. These enlightened souls are cocreating a new monetary system. This system will be based on integrity, generosity, fairness, compassion, and the highest good for all concerned. It will rise out of the ashes of our obsolete monetary system like a mighty Phoenix.
In order for the pain and suffering involved with the collapse of the old monetary system to be cleared and transmuted as quickly as possible, Lightworkers are being called into action. Our unified efforts will allow this purging process to be accomplished much sooner than seems possible from outer appearances. Many experts believe the painful effects of the present purging of our global economy will take years to overcome. But the Company of Heaven has assured us that the unified efforts of the Lightworkers can complete this process “in the twinkling of an eye.”
Beloved Ones, accomplishing this mighty feat is the greatest need of the hour.
Once this facet of the Divine Plan is complete, the patterns of perfection for the New Earth will easily expand through the hearts and minds of all Humanity. This will enable our Divine Birthright to be restored. That Birthright is the perpetual flow of God’s Infinite Abundance and Eternal Peace.
A Divine Plan has been set in motion to accomplish this vitally important mission. The Company of Heaven is invoking Lightworkers around the world to come together both physically and in consciousness to fulfill this plan. If you are reading these words, your I AM Presence is revealing that you have a part to play in this unfolding Divine Plan.
Listen to your heart. Your I AM Presence will guide you unerringly. Your part of the plan will be revealed to you. You will know in your heart-of-hearts how you can best add to the Light of the world during this Cosmic Opportunity. When you respond to your heart’s call, you will be God in Action, and you will fulfill your part of the plan by quickly transmuting the surfacing negativity.
THE DIVINE PLAN
In order to accomplish this facet of the Divine Plan, our Father-Mother God and the Beings of Light in the Realms of Illumined Truth are sending forth a Clarion Call to all embodied Lightworkers. We are being asked to gather within the portal of the most powerful 5th-Dimensional frequencies of healing and transmutation on Earth. This Portal of Light in Tucson, Arizona, is the location on the planet where the Flame of Healing Through the Power of Infinite Transmutation is projected from the core of Creation into the center of the Earth. From the heart of Mother Earth, this Sacred Fire expands through the Crystal Grid System to bless all Life.
The Flame of Healing Through the Power of Infinite Transmutation is a resplendent emerald green flame with a violet radiance. It is the most powerful frequency of healing and transmutation on Earth, and it is the instrument through which Humanity’s surfacing miscreations will be transmuted into Light at a greatly accelerated pace.
The Company of Heaven is asking Lightworkers from all over the world to gather within this Portal of Light to unite our Heart Flames. Together we will form a mighty transformer through which the Light of God will flow to accomplish the most powerful healing and transmuting of Humanity’s miscreation ever to manifest in the history of time.
It is critical that Lightworkers from around the world be physically present in order to form this transformer. All of the Lightworkers who have been prepared to serve in this wondrous way on behalf of Humanity and all Life on this sweet Earth will know who they are through the inner promptings of their heart. Listen to your heart, and Trust your inner guidance. Your Light is urgently needed.
In addition to those inspired to be physically present, there will be Lightworkers who will join in consciousness from points of Light around the world. These Lightworkers will project the Light flowing through their Heart Flames into the Portal of Light where the Lightworkers are physically gathered; thus our unified efforts will expand a thousand times a thousandfold.
Every Lightworker will be in his or her right and perfect place. No facet of this Divine Plan is any more important than another. What is important, is that we respond to whatever our I AM Presence is guiding us to do. We must Trust and KNOW that if we are being guided to be physically present within the Portal of Healing Through the Power of Infinite Transmutation, then our I AM Presence and the Company of Heaven will assist us in paving the way. This is true whether we need assistance with time, energy, or money to accomplish this facet of our Divine Mission.
The vehicle that will be used for this gathering of Lightworkers is the 23rd Annual World Congress on Illumination. This event will take place August 15-20, 2009, during the 22nd anniversary of Harmonic Convergence. We will gather at the beautiful Loews Ventana Canyon Resort in Tucson, Arizona. This exquisite resort exists within the heart of the Portal of Healing Through the Power of Infinite Transmutation. All of the information you will need to participate in this Cosmic Opportunity is available on our website: http://eraofpeace.org
JULY 2009 PART I
Stories of Initiation
RaHo Tep, The Initiate
RaHo Tep, The Initiate
We are the Arcturians. In our last meeting we talked about Initiation, including the secret and sacred Initiation of Human Love. The concept of Initiation can be quite confusing, especially the Initiation of Human Love. Therefore, we wish to share the story of two initiates with you. One is a male, RaHoTep, who will speak of his Initiation in Ancient Egypt and the other is a female, Matia, who will speak of her initiation in Ancient Delphi. Because their stories are quite long, RaHoTep will share his message in this meeting, and Matia will share hers at our next meeting.
All of you have past/parallel realities in which you have passed your initiations and served Gaia as a great Initiate. We present these stories to assist you in better understanding the process of initiation, as well as to ignite your memory of your own initiation lives. We know that you have had these initiation lives because we see your aura and because you have found your way to our Corridor. As RaHoTep and Matia tell their stories, allow your own stories of initiation to come to the surface of your consciousness.
In this meeting we introduce RaHoTep:
Dear Ones, I am happy to share my story with you. As I look at all those in the Corridor, my heart fills with joy to see so many Initiates. I hope that my story will be of some assistance and/or comfort in your own process of being your true, Multidimensional SELF in daily life. Discerning between the illusions of our fears and the Truth of our SELF is a challenge that is more difficult then we might have imagined. Your task is even more challenging, as you must find and complete your great initiations while you are also called upon to complete your daily tasks of survival on the third dimension.
I lived in a reality where those who showed promise of attaining initiation were sent to the Temple to study. When my parents had my birth chart done, they learned that my destiny was not with them, but with the Temple. Perhaps that is why I never felt love from them in my earliest years. It wasn’t until I entered the Temple at five years of age that I experienced the love that a family can offer. I studied and served while I was a child and a young adult. My youth in the Temple was filled with loving instructions and wonderful friends. I knew some in the Temple did not share my feelings, but I loved every minute of it. I felt as though I had finally come home.
I started my Final Initiation with my first Saturn Return when I was 28 years old. I know that this age may seem very young to you, but I had been in the Temple since I was 7. My teachers told me that they considered me ready to take the Final Initiation, but I would have to wait until I received my inner instructions. I was told to inform them when my Inner Guide, Radula, instructed that it was TIME. This instruction came a short while after my teachers had given their permission. How many lives had I had to prepare for this moment? A rush of vague pictures from these lives ran past my mind’s eye. Deep within me I felt a call of destiny not yet manifest. I was excited, as well as frightened.
I knew that the three possible outcomes from this Initiation were success, insanity, or death. The second two choices were not acceptable to me. Although I was not afraid of death, as I knew it to be only a recess, I felt that I had not yet fulfilled my purpose for incarnation. I did not want all the years of study and work to be for my personal gain alone. Perhaps when my initiations were finished, I would better know what my service was to be.
At last, the day arrived. The moon was full and I was ready. I had been staying in the quarters located beneath the Sphinx, built especially for those awaiting Initiation. From these quarters, it was only a short walk through the desert to the Great Pyramid where every initiate spent seven days and seven nights deep in the bowels of the Pyramid. These seven days and nights were used to review past lives and lessons. If I passed the first portion, I knew there would be more, but the secret of the rest of the initiation was strictly guarded.
As expected, I had not been able to sleep the night before. At dawn, three hooded Priests came to my door just when the first rays of the Sun cleared the horizon. No words were exchanged. The Priests led me from my room and into the desert. I had always loved the desert at sunrise and sunset, just when the Sun rose above or dropped below the horizon. The horizons in Egypt were infiniteas infinite as Spirit.
As I followed the Priests to the Great Pyramid, I reflected on the soft, golden glow of light. As the desert welcomed a new day, I would welcome a new life. I felt a warm anticipation that matched the rapidly approaching heat of the desert. I was at one with all of nature. The vast vistas of my outer world nudged my inner visions to prepare for awakening. The desert was still, as was my mind, and a warm, gentle breeze caressed my face as if to say, Good luck!
I smiled in reply and silently followed the Priests as we entered the Pyramid. Although the Sun had been barely above the horizon when the Priests and I entered the Great Pyramid, I was unprepared for the total darkness that surrounded us. One of the Priests carried a small oil lamp. It was the only thing that I could make out as we moved deeper and deeper into the Great Pyramid. I had learned from my lessons that the total darkness in the pyramid was meant to prepare us to face the darkness inside of ourselves.
Finally, we arrived at a small wooden door, very simple in design. From the glow of the single lamp, I could see the grains in the wood, a golden latch and a lock hanging open. The Priests would lock me in this room for seven days and seven nights totally alone. They opened the door, led the way inside and instructed me to sit upon a simple papyrus mat on the stone floor. The oil lamp was placed on a ledge to my right along with a small skin of water.
‘This lamp will burn for only three days and nights. After that you will be in total darkness.’
These were the first words spoken by the Priests. They said no more. I heard the door close and, with a soft clicking sound, the latch was locked. I closed my eyes and began to meditate. Within those seven days, I reviewed my lessons of that life and all the others. I went into the land of the dead again and again to give penance for any that I had wronged. I reviewed every lesson that I had ever received in any life that I could access. I don’t recall the oil lamp flickering out nor reaching for the water. I only remember the soft click of the latch. This first external sound heard in seven days snapped me back into my physical body.
As the Priests entered the room, I saw their hooded faces over another oil lamp, which one of the Priests held. I slowly nodded to them to show that I was still alive and cognizant. They nodded ever so slightly in response and motioned for me to join them. It took me a while to stand up, and when I did, I could not walk. I leaned against the wall and willed the life force back into my legs that had been crossed in one position for seven days. The Priests took my now empty oil lamp and water-skin from the ledge and waited patiently. When I was able to walk, they led me from the room.
I didn’t know where I was going, but I knew that since I had survived the first part of the initiation, I would be allowed to take the next. The halls within the pyramid were as dark as before, but now my eyes were accustomed to it. The small lamp of my three guides shone like a star for me to follow. The guides walked slowly at first to allow me to get used to my body, but quickened the pace as soon as they knew I could keep up. We moved down, down, and down.
I had learned that the Final Initiation Room was somewhere deep below the surface of the desert, exactly below the apex of the Great Pyramid. Finally, we came to what appeared to be a dead end. A stone wall was before us. The Priests did not seem dismayed by this turn of events and formed a semi-circle in front of the wall. While I stood off to the side waiting for what would happen next, each of the Priests began to sound a tone, which I thought must surely arise from the core of their Souls.
At first their toning seemed random. But gradually, a pattern could be discerned until; at last, there was a crescendo of beautiful harmonious tones. As the singing faded into the surrounding darkness, it was replaced with a low rumbling. Gradually, the wall began to move to the right. Behind this simple stone barrier was a pair of magnificent and ornately carved golden doors. As the doors were slowly revealed, I knew that I had seen these doors before in my meditations. One of the Priests approached the golden doors and placed one hand on each door. The doors were so well balanced that with just the slightest push, they swung open into a huge room. The Priests gestured for me to enter. The doors quickly closed behind me. Again, I heard the low rumbling of the wall covering all traces of the sacred initiation room.
The brilliance of the room blinded me. I had never experienced such illumination while in a physical form. Slowly, slowly, my eyes grew accustomed to the light, and I began to survey the room. This room was not of my Egypt. There were domes and pillars studded with lapis, emeralds, rubies, diamonds, amethyst and jewels I could not identify. Colors I had never seen were painted upon the many carvings, statues and figurines that seemed to move as if they were alive. Somehow I knew that everything within the room was very ancient and had a life force greater than anything I had ever known. This was architecture I’d seen only in my inner journeys to Atlantis.
The large center dome sheltered a smaller pyramid that was a vibration of light rather than a physical structure. Anubus and Thoth, the ancient Egyptian Gods of Initiation, stood within the pyramid on either side of a large sarcophagus. The sarcophagus was mounted on a stand of pure gold with silver steps leading up the right hand side. The sarcophagus was made of a substance that I had not seen before. I knew instinctively that this substance was not of this planet and had been given to Earth millennia ago by its first inhabitants.
The sarcophagus was ornately carved in the same non-Egyptian manner as the walls around me. I sensed that although the sarcophagus was opaque, it could become translucent if the proper alterations were made by the observer’s mind. Anubus motioned for me to enter the sarcophagus and Thoth nodded in agreement. Again, there was no verbal communication. The journey from the doorway to the silver stairs was the longest journey of my life. As I climbed the few stairs I realized that if, indeed, I lived to descend them, I would not be the same person as before.
I lay down inside the sarcophagus. The substance was hard as stone and yet smooth and warm as skin. I felt as if I were re-entering the womb. The flat, stark walls seemed to slowly mold themselves around my form as I settled into the sarcophagus. I don’t think that I could have moved even if I had chosen to. Then Thoth leaned his head over the edge of the sarcophagus and spoke three questions to me in an unknown language. I did not know what the questions were, but I intuitively knew that they were indeed questions and that my survival depended upon my answering them.
I sent a call to my Inner Guide, Radula, as I saw the lid of the sarcophagus slowly enclose me in my tomb. Silently the lid was fastened tight to signify my transition. Again, I was alone.
If I stayed in the tomb too long I would die. There was little oxygen inside, so if I were to keep my physical self alive, I would have to raise my consciousness to the higher dimensions so that I could feed it with Spirit. I knew that I would not be able to leave my body through my third eye as I had done many times before. I searched inside myself for a portal to use to free my Spirit from the confinement of its physical form. I began to feel a deep fear arise within me, but I willed it away. I must not allow myself to experience an emotion that would drop my consciousness!
‘Where is the portal to your Higher SELF?
I now understood the first question. I remembered the chanting of the Priests outside the stone door. I could not use my voice, as there was too little oxygen to waste, but I felt the vibration of the toning just as I had with the three Priests. Since my consciousness was not limited to a human voice, I was able to sing all three parts at once. The melody and frequency calmed my fear and further raised my consciousness. I found myself concentrating on a doorway inside my head, at the very core of my brain. As I continued to tone, something solid, like the stone door, began to open, and behind it were the very same golden doors I had seen upon entering this room. These doors opened inward. Once again I stepped through them and felt them quickly close behind me. At first I saw nothing but golden light, which embraced every cell and atom of my form and consciousness.
Then slowly, off in the distance, I saw a vortex beginning to form. It began to swirl, slowly at first, and then faster and faster. It was gold, silver, blue, violet, and the other colors that I had first seen in the room outside the sarcophagus. I felt a pull to step into the vortex, and with my decision to do so, it was suddenly just before me. I fell into the core of it and found myself spinning faster and faster through timeless space. At first I was dizzy, but then the spin became so intense that I felt totally still, yet at the same time, it felt as if every cell and atom had quickened its vibration in response to the spin. Then, with a pop, my spin stopped and I found myself in the midst of a great void. I had become fifth dimensional and all was calm.
‘Where is the Crystal City?’
With the second question, there was a golden light before me which became a golden form–my Divine Complement. She came in the form of a woman since I embodied a man. We embraced in deep reunion and love. She looked into my eyes and whispered, ‘I will take you Home now’.
Then we were on Venus. It spread out before us with all the beauty and harmony that I had remembered from deep within my Soul for all of my lives. My heart opened in a burst of Light and Love that would have exploded my earthen body had I been in my third dimensional consciousness. I saw the mists of Venus all about me. I saw the flora and fauna of my beloved Home as they floated about me in loving welcome. With their every movement, harmonious colors and sounds echoed their motions.
A welcoming party formed a pathway that led us to the main entrance of the Crystal City. My Divine Complement slipped into my form as we became One again for our homecoming. Translucent crystal gates swung wide as we approached them, and a golden path lighted our way to the heart of the city. The Golden Wisdom Temple was set in glimmering splendor at the end of the path on top of a hill. The doors were open, awaiting our entry. Even though we could have instantly willed ourselves to our destination, we enjoyed the journey and the community of others, so we chose to travel in the same swimming/flying motions as those around us.
Eventually, we found ourselves standing in front of the mighty Sanat Kumara, the Planetary Logos for Earth and Regent of Venus. Rami Nuri and Djwhal Khul, as his advisors, stood on either side of him. The Divine Complements of all three flowed within them. They were androgynous. They were complete!
I bowed before them and Sanat Kumara handed me a jewel. The jewel was unlike anything I had ever known. It was more a vibration than a substance, yet it had beauty and form. I took the jewel in gratitude and held it within my heart.
My Complement and I spent what seemed a lifetime on Venus. We lived and loved and died. And then I began to feel a pull. I knew that the pull was my destiny. It was Earth. It was calling me to return to my third dimensional life so that I could fulfill my destiny there. I had to return in order for the body to live. The sadness of that realization shook my very Soul, but I remembered my commitment. I had said that I would stay on Earth. Therefore, I had to return, before it was too late to save the life of my earthen form.
The sudden density of the sarcophagus was a shock. How could I have returned so quickly without even a goodbye? And then my heart felt the love of my Home and my Divine Complement. Yes, there was no goodbye, for I would hold them in my consciousness, but what about the sarcophagus? There was even less oxygen and now I was fully physical.
‘How do you open the sarcophagus?’
The third question was translated in my heart. Yes, in my heart was the answer the jewel the vibration of the jewel would raise the lid. And then, as I focused my attention upon the jewel within my heart, I heard my first physical sound since the three questions were spoken to me a lifetime ago. The sound was of the lid of the sarcophagus slowly rising. I felt the oxygen rushing to my rescue. Like a newborn infant, I took my first breath and sat up. ‘You are free!’ I heard Thoth say in Egyptian, my native tongue.
After weeks of contemplating my initiation, I realized that my lessons now lay in finding the spiritual that dwells in the physical rather than in the spiritual alone. I told my teachers this, and they agreed with my decision. I retired to my small cell to meditate and felt my Inner Guide come to me at once.
‘Oh, Beloved Radula, help me. How can I accomplish this part of my destiny?’
‘You are to leave the Temple.’
‘No, no! How can I? It will be like leaving home,’ I cried.
‘Exactly,’ replied my guide. The time comes when even children of the One must leave the
safety of home in order to find a new life. Your time is now!’
I awoke from my meditation with a sense of anxiety. Where was I to go? How was I to unify and ground myself in the physical world? I had learned to unify and surrender myself to the spiritual world, but there had been many teachers to help me. Now I would be alone. On the Spiritual Path, there had been a longing, a call Home. But now, I felt compelled more by duty than by loving and longing, and I knew I must leave the Temple. Life there was too sheltered and my task could not be completed in that environment. The Temple was only partly physical, and, therefore, only partly my place of purpose.
I suppose I could have stayed there, but it would have taken much longer to accomplish my task of grounding my spirit in matter. As they say in the physical, time is of the essence. I didn’t know how long I could maintain my commitment to a Path that was so challenging to me. Even in the holy vibration of the Temple, the low vibration of the third dimension tended to distort the visions of my Initiation. I knew I must take the chance of venturing out into the world while my lessons were still strong in my memory – the greater the risk, the greater the victory. And, most importantly, I had to follow my inner instructions.
So with tears in my heart, I said goodbye to all that I had known and loved. I could not hope to make my many friends and companions understand why I had to leave, as I barely understood myself. Only Radula understood. So, without looking back, I left my beloved Temple, perhaps, forever. But what did forever mean? Now that I had traveled beyond time, many words had no meaning. How would I ever relate to the people of the world when I could barely relate to the rules of the physical plane? Many questions filled my mind as I left my beloved Temple behind me.
The first six months could have been years or eons. My many activities were too inconsequential to note. The mundane responsibilities of life were unmanageable for me. I had never learned how to care for myself in the world. Getting and preparing food and finding a place to sleep was a new experience. All my physical needs had been taken care of in the Temple. Now that I was on my own in a world foreign to my mind, everything became a task and an effort. How was I to desire, much less gain, a sense of unity with a life that I could not even begin to understand?
Many times I doubted my purpose, as well as my sanity. In fact, many believed I had failed my initiation and had been cast upon the streets instead of leaving of my own free will. They could not understand why I would try this unknown task. A Priest was supposed to stay in the Temple. He was not supposed to go out into the streets to help the people. The people were supposed to go to the Temple when they needed help. And, if they could not get to the Temple, they did not get the help. It was the will of the gods, and the people did not question it. In fact, I found that they did not question anything, except whether or not I was insane. I was attempting something that had never been done, and it frightened them. However, on the bright side, I felt an inner knowing that I was following my destiny. Therefore, I continued on my new path.
Finally, I found a wonderful valley. The energy there was different from anywhere else I had experienced. In this valley I could feel some of the high vibrations that I had known in Temple life, but they were different. Perhaps they were more grounded in the earth, like I was learning to be. I found great joy in wandering the hills near my camp. There was a small pond with a magnificent tree next to it. I spent long hours in meditation under that tree. The energies of the Goddess began to enter into the base of my spine. For the first time in my life, I felt that I was a member of the physical plane. I began to achieve a relationship with Nature that was unknown in the Temple, where we constantly strove to leave our bodies and journey into the other worlds. I was beginning to understand the meaning of my inner directive.
A few people gathered about me, though neither they nor I understood why. I lived very simply and in harmony with my environment. The people would bring me food and I would heal them or listen to them. Is there a difference between the two? A strange peace was growing within me that felt very much like the peace of the valley. I had spent my life finding a connection to Spirit, and now I was discovering a connection to the earth. I found that I was beginning to enjoy it.
The people who came to me were special. I was close enough to the town that these people knew I had undergone my initiation. They also believed I had failed and had to leave the Temple. However, they still came, choosing to listen to an inner voice and ignoring the outer voices telling them I was insane. Some came out of curiosity and soon left. Most, however, came because of an inner call, and they were the ones who stayed.
Gradually, people began to bring their sleeping mats or simple tents and camp with me. Our life was very peaceful. We rose at dawn to greet the Sun. Our ceremonies were simple and individual. Each person found a spot and greeted the Sun from that place every dawn. I knew not how they greeted it, as I was busy myself and had chosen not to observe them. If they told me, which they usually did, I listened without comment. When they asked my opinion, I referred them to their inner guidance. I told them all that their inner voice had guided them to me and would continue to guide them. I acted merely as an interpreter. Just as they had been led there, they would eventually be led away. I remained loving, yet detached. I knew that my earthly lesson was to stay detached from any public acclaim. However, I feared that part of my lesson might be to face the challenge of success and adulation.
We ate what came to us and were as grateful for a meager meal, as we were for a feast. We knew that food was a taste that could corrupt. We were clear not to become attached to it. When the people had learned to heal themselves, they usually desired to learn how to heal others. I was sure that these were extraordinary people who had come to learn and not merely to be healed. Some remembered much of what I taught, and others were unable to retain what they had learned. I remained flexible so that I would not repeat what they already knew or push them too hard to learn new information.
After a year or two the group had grown to about fifty people. Some came only once in a while, some regularly, and about twenty people lived there. I felt a restlessness beginning to stir within me, but I didn’t know what it was. I knew that something was about to change, but I was not sure if it was my body, my environment, or even my consciousness. Unfortunately, I also knew that this change would not be easy, and I would have to warn the twenty who lived with me. I knew that certain members of the town were worried about what we were doing. I needed to be ready to move at any time.
I finally told the twenty that it was time to leave. I could feel the growing discontentment of the town. Since we lived in such a simple manner, they refused to believe we were of the Light. Gold and jewels surrounded the Priests of the Temple. If the gods were on our side, why weren’t we provided with material riches? The town members believed that they could not have spiritual powers without riches. Since they were unlikely to possess these riches, they would continue to believe that they had to go to the gods for power, as they could never find power by going within themselves.
Unfortunately, I had stayed too long. Many angry and frightened people came upon us in the night. Four of the twenty were killed, and ten were wounded. The remaining six escaped into the night. The wounded ten and I went into the back lands to heal. Even though there was much violence, I was unharmed. I knew not why. Perhaps there was still some greater protection at work. I knew that the six who ran away would not return. I felt their disillusionment. Many of those who had not lived with us were also either disillusioned or afraid. A number of loyal friends psychically found our hiding place and brought us food, water, and news of the town. Some of them felt that it was their task to stay in the town and carry on the work in a silent way, and the rest would move on with us when all were healed.
I discovered how difficult it was to maintain my belief in free will, and accept love, in the face of such adversity. In the Temple, the surroundings and superstitions about the gods and their Priests protected us. Here, all of my protection lay within me, and I always had to feel it so that I could protect the others. I felt responsible for the deaths and the injuries. If I had acted upon my inner prompting more quickly, I could have averted any injury. This was a hard lesson to learn. I would have to remember to instantly react to my inner guidance. I was not in the Temple, the land of gentle instruction. There might be only one warning, and the consequences could be merciless if one did not heed it.
Our small community had disturbed the townspeople’s sense of reality, and they had retaliated in a frightened, violent way. I had learned the hard way that my work had to be done quietly, away from those who were unable to accept a new reality. I learned that those who could not find comfort in their own beliefs would feel threatened by new ideas. One must first find the core of his/her own truth before embracing another. Old foundations must be uprooted before new ones can be laid. The people who had harmed us were not evil. They were afraid.
When we began moving, some of the band decided to stay behind. I had spoken to all of them, individually and as a group. Most understood what had happened and were even relieved to know that I was human. However, some were looking for a god-person and could not bear to learn of my frailties. These people would not be coming with us. I had determined to always discuss my human emotions and misgivings with my group. It helped me to understand the human part of myself, and it also guarded against adulation from the members of the group. I did not wish to have the burden of being anyone’s god. I was merely a teacher and a guide. I understood from my Temple work that humility had not been one of my strong suits in past lives, and I needed to endeavor to hone that virtue.
After many months of traveling, the numbers in our band had decreased further. Finally, we found a place were we could stay for a while. We had traveled through many barren lands, and finally found ourselves in a small, tropical oasis. There was water and fruit. Also, caravans traveled through this area and would gladly trade their staples for a healing, dried fruit, and whatever other services we could provide. The oasis was quite large and we could be far away from where the caravans filled up their water. Therefore, only those who followed an inner call actually arrived at our camp. Usually, one or two of us would go to the watering area and offer a trade. Several of the group could read auras quite well. They would always go along to see if there was danger. We were getting wiser and more careful.
After about six months, I sensed it was time to move on again. This time I would not wait too long. The word of our work had spread and many had come especially to be healed or to learn. However, there had been increasing problems with the caravan leaders who feared we were somehow a threat. We had found a valley with water two days’ walk away. We could come to the oasis solely to trade while we carried on our other activities at a safe distance. I wondered when the wandering would cease. Were we forever destined to move farther and farther away so as not to offend others?
The transfer of locations went quite easily. All of us did our part. We could see now that this was a much better spot. There was a small stream that arose from the ground at the top of a low hill and stayed on the surface long enough to form a fair-sized pool before it again became subterranean. One of the women in the group gave birth to a male child. We then had our first natural citizen. Citizen of what, I did not know, but it appeared that some sort of community was beginning to form. I didn’t know how new people got there, but they came on a regular basis. Some of them had heard about us from traders and, somehow, the word spread to others. A few came by divine guidance, as they could not remember how they had found us.
Then one day, a Prince from a faraway land came to us with several of his bodyguards. I had an uncertain feeling about this event. I knew that it would lead to some new development, and I didn’t think I would care much for it. However, I was there to follow instructions from within, and I was beginning to be at peace with allowing each new development to formulate on its own. The Prince began coming regularly. He had a rare genetic disease that he believed I could cure. He had come to us because of a dream and recognized me instantly. I told him that his karma had dictated this disease to him, and his task was to fulfill this karma. Once his karma was balanced, the disease would be cured. However, I did not know if this cure would come in life or in death. I had grown very fond of the Prince and was having trouble maintaining my objectivity. I had to constantly remind myself to accept the decision of his Soul and not to hold any fear or sadness.
The Prince and I talked many times. As we looked into his other lives, we found that he had been very hard-hearted and could not see the suffering of others. Therefore, in this life his heart was not of sufficient elasticity. We finally decided that in order to balance his karma, he was to live among his people as a peasant for one year. We felt that if he lived through this, his condition would improveif he allowed himself to recognize, and be sympathetic to, other’s pain. The Prince’s father, of course, was not happy about this agreement, but he would do anything to try to heal his son. I was to travel with him as often as I could. This would mean considerable hardship, as the journey was long and dangerous, but I felt I must continue as the Path unfolded.
After almost a year, the Prince was much better. Soon his healing would be complete, and he would return to help his father rule. This was none too soon, as the father was very old and ready to leave the physical plane. I tried to prepare the Prince for this possibility, but he was resistant to hearing it. I feared this would be the final, and most difficult test, for the Prince. He had become a very dear man, and I was sure he would be a kind and just ruler. I doubted he could attain the wisdom of a Pharaoh, but he would fulfill his destiny to the best of his potential. This was all one could do in any life.
Finally, the year was completed. The Prince had just returned to his home when his father died. I spoke with his father on the other side and found that he had known all along of his impending death, which was the only reason why he had agreed to my plan. The plan had been very successful. The Prince spoke with his father before he died and was able to face his death bravely. I was happy for the Prince, who was now the King. He had grown from being sick and frightened to a strong and virile man. The new King wished me to begin a Temple for him to provide healing and education for his people. I would do so. But as soon as it was started, I would leave some of my most advanced pupils to run it, and then I would move on.
The King had given me free reign to teach as I wished, and I soon found myself in quite a position of power. He built me a beautiful Temple, and there were many Priests and Priestesses beneath me. I was the High Priest, and there was no one to put me in my place. The schools were successful, and the people were remarkably open to my teachings. Many wished to worship me and make me something that I was not. The recognition and praise was more of a threat than a treasure, and I constantly monitored my feelings to note any speck of clinging to earthly prizes. I called constantly to my Inner Guide to keep me balanced and to keep my consciousness centered. But, despite my efforts, I began to fear the call of the riches, adulation, and comfort. I feared them because I began to enjoy them too much.
There had been no fear in me in the wilderness, but even though I missed the days of solitude in nature, I never left my luxurious Temple. In the lap of luxury, fear and yes, arrogancebegan to invade my consciousness. I worked very hard to purify myself, but each day the wealth and recognition altered my mind and hardened my heart. Gradually, I began to change. I was torn. Should I stay there and continue my work, or should I retreat into the wilderness to save my Soul?
Before I knew it, it was too late. I began to wear the golden garments, and I decorated my quarters like a palace. The food I ate was the best in the kingdom, and I starting looking at women as if they were something to be taken. I knew I could leave, but also knew that I would not. I found it more and more difficult to reach my Inner Guide and could not understand what was said when I did. Deep inside me I knew I could not understand their message because I did not want to hear it. Somewhere in my Soul I had always known that my test would be to maintain my purity and humility despite the power, fame and wealth brought by worldly success and recognition. Even though I had suspected such a challenge, I had failed. I lived this way for several decades.
Then one evening, I had a dream. I dreamed of Radula. The Guide that I had forgotten had somehow gotten through my resistance and touched my consciousness. Standing mutely before me, Radula displayed a scene of an old man dying alone in the desert. I awoke with a start, but could not move. Slowly, my years as a High Priest were reviewed in my mind. And then I remembered my young ideals and ethics. I felt old and tired. How could this have happened? How could I have lost myself to the temptations of the flesh? Were the ways of the world so tempting, or was I just weaker than I suspected?
I prayed to Radula to return, but there was no response. I was starving among the most delicious of foods and thirsting amongst the finest of wines. My heart was aching while a kingdom loved me, and I was poverty-stricken while anything I touched could be mine. The rich foods and fine drinks had weakened me. Many years of using only my mind while others waited upon my body had made me dependent on the comfort and softness of the life I had created. I even had three wives and had fathered five children without being a parent to any of them. How had I lost control of my life in such a way? My anguish was my secret since I had grown dependent upon the worship of others and could not allow anyone to see me vulnerable, even my old friend the King.
The fine foods sickened me, and the drinks nauseated me. The women bored me, and the soft environment suffocated me. What was to become of my Soul? I longed to return to the simple days of the wilderness. Perhaps if I returned there I could regain what I had lost. I had grown soft and weak in both body and mind. I was so tormented that I became ill. A fever raged for many days, and I suffered the death of the old man alone in the wilderness again and again. Finally, I vowed that if my health returned, I would return to my roots, no matter what. The next day, I awoke, totally cured. My answer had come. I must journey alone into the desert.
I told no one of my plans. I gave my riches to the poor, except for what was necessary to take care of my children and their mothers. I feared that they hated me because they did not agree with what I thought was enough’. But, I couldn’t leave them to the corruption of my riches. I feared I still had no love for them, but I wished them well as I left alone at dawn and traveled into the desert.
After about a week of travel, I found a small oasis and settled in to find my Self. At last I felt contentment in my beloved wilderness. The beauty of nature far surpassed the riches of man. Every being in nature spoke to me as an individual. There was no deification or jealousy. I was simply a member of the society of earth. I had left the Temple with only a beast and a few provisions, and soon the food was gone. As an Initiate, I had learned to go many days without food or water, but now I could not raise my vibration enough. Nor did I wish to. As I traveled alone, I had come to realize that I had gone into the desert to die. It was I who was the old man dying in the wilderness. Gradually, I allowed the life force to leave my body. When all my food was gone, the hunger that I suffered was one of purification and cleansing, as the weight of success’ fell from my body. I let the beast go so that it could find its way home, and I gradually slipped into the delirium of starvation and fever. I had regained contact with Radula. The love of my Guide was more important than the adulation of an entire kingdom. In just a few more days, I would be spent of the Earth.
Maybe I had given up or, maybe, I had followed a divine directive. I would only know for sure on the other side. I could not continue any longer. The vital energy had left my body and now hovered just above my heart. To some, my life was a great success. To others, it was a complete failure. At that point, I could not tell which was right. I had done the impossible, and it had destroyed me. The last two days were as long as my entire life. I had surveyed every moment of it and wished I could return for corrections. However, I was now too weak to get the water that was not far away, and hunger had long since left me. On the seventh day, I left my body completely. As I took my last breath, I already felt lonely for the body that I must leave. I felt great anguish for the end of my life. All I could do was ask forgiveness.
I called to Radula for forgiveness and understanding. The last thing I saw was the Prince, who was now the King, rushing to save me.
I opened my eyes thinking that I would see the higher worlds, but instead all I saw was the inside of the sarcophagus.
‘NO!’ I screamed. I was very confused and disoriented. Where was I? Was I in a grave, sealed alive to slowly suffocate? I began to lose all control of my emotions and went into a state of panic. I pushed at the lid and hammered on the sides around me, but the more I struggled, the smaller the space became and the less oxygen there was to fill my lungs. I started to cough and grasp for air. I was dying. The box around me became smaller and smaller until I could no longer struggle, as there was no space. The lid was inches above my nose. However, the absolute restriction calmed me.
I slowed my breathing and tried to remember how I got in this place, but I could not. My mind was blank, my memory gone. Slowly, something began to grow in my heart a feeling. At last, I realized it was a feeling of love. At first it was far, far away and more like a memory than an emotion. When I attached my attention to it, the feeling grew stronger and closer. At last, it emanated from deep within my heart. Yes, it was Love, the most beautiful love that I could ever remember. A voice, clear as a bell and soft as the morning breeze whispered to my Soul. I recognized it before I could understand the words. It was my Divine Complement.
‘It is your initiation, Beloved. You are inside of the sarcophagus, and the life that you just lived
was an illusion, a portion of your initiation.’
Her feel’ and her words calmed my Soul and, gradually, I began to remember.
‘Beloved,’ I spoke in a whisper, if you had not come to me, I would have died. In fact, I still may if I
don’t remember how to raise the lid. But if I die with you, I will be content.’
‘You needn’t die, my One. What you need to do is correct your mistake. Find where you began to
make your choices from fear rather than from Love and re-enter the illusion to change your
Yes, I mused. When did I forget about Love? When did I change my intention? I went back over the life again and again, becoming increasingly aware of the diminishing oxygen level in the sarcophagus. I realized that I had to go into a meditation and raise my vibration back into the fourth dimension because my third dimensional form could no longer survive in the confines of the sarcophagus. My ego was having a difficult time rising above fear. In response to my thoughts, my Divine Complement began to sing gently into my heart. She sang songs of Venus and of Arcturus, our home before we went to Venus. Yes, I had forgotten Arcturus. I had forgotten the frequency of unconditional love that was the emanation of that reality.
I began to feel my consciousness raising. I felt my form as pure light and again the trapped, physical form was but a memory. My Complement and I were one again. We were complete and androgynous and traveling into the higher dimensions. We saw the Crystal City of Venus below us, but we continued on. Then, we saw before us a beautiful vortex filled with violet and golden light. The vortex pulled us into it, and we were deep in the void beyond the vortex. All was still, completely and blissfully still. We were a small speck of consciousness in a void of raw potential. In this void, there were no emotions and no thoughts. There was no movement and no time. For eternity we stayed floating free in the void.
Then gradually, off in the recesses of our consciousness came a thought. The thought was followed by a sound, and then by a speck of light. The light became a star and the star became Arcturus. The star was far away, deep inside of our consciousness. We felt the love of it, and allowed that love to act as a tractor beam to pull us closer and closer to our true Home. The reunion with unconditional love was so intense that it seemed to create an inner explosion that repelled us out of the void, beyond the vortex, past Venus and back into ancient Egypt. I cried out in anguish thinking that I had lost my Divine Complement, but I instantly heard her comforting voice.
‘We are complete, Beloved. I am alive within you, and I will always remind you to remember unconditional love.
Reassured, I took a moment to find where in my vision I had arrived. I focused my attention to clear my inner perception and saw the King standing before me. He had just offered to build a Temple for me so that I might be the High Priest and spiritual leader of his kingdom. It was at that moment that I felt the reactions of fear come into my heart and mind, and my intentions shifted from love to fear. What I had missed before now resonated deep inside my consciousness. I was afraidafraid of my own corruption.
Through all of my teachings and initiations, there had been an engram, a core belief, hiding in my deep unconscious. It said: Matter corrupts Spirit.’ I was afraid that recognition and riches would corrupt me. This fear went unnoticed and seeped into my consciousness like a poison. Where once I had felt unity with all life, I began to feel separation and limitation. I became separate from those who built and served in the Temple and limited in my ability to view my greater Self. My thinking became polarized into good and bad, light and dark. Gradually, comparison, competition, judgment and jealousy became a portion of my mental life while resentment and anger filled my emotions. I longed for the simple illumination of my life in the wilderness where I had felt united with all life and had allowed my Soul’s purpose to unfold before me.
It was the rejoining with my Divine Complement and our journey Home to Arcturus that allowed me to return to that pivotal moment in my initiation vision and uproot the cause of my demise. I then understood that this vision was a preview of my divine mission, a rehearsal where I could find my hidden enemymy hidden fear! Where had this engram/core belief, held tightly to my consciousness with fear, come from? I knew that I had to find the cause in order to heal it so I looked back upon my childhood.
When I was a small child and still living with my parents, I saw that they were very poor. My father had great difficulty in finding fulfillment in his life. He had studied to be a scribe, but he lacked the necessary discipline and often found himself without work. He had married beneath his class, as my mother was from a family of farmers. However, it was her diligence and ability to grow food for the family, and even to sell at the marketplace, that provided the only security we had. As a small child, I often heard them argue because, when my father did get work, he took the money and gambled it away.
When I went to the Temple, I thought that I felt guilty for abandoning my mother to her difficult life. Actually the truth was that I felt guilty because I was happy to leave a home with so much quarreling and so little love. From my parents I learned that lack of material comfort could destroy the spiritual connection of a relationship. I imagined that my mother was actually the nurturing, kind mother I wished she had been, and I blamed my father for robbing me of that mother. I believed that it was his selfish and addictive ways that had ruined my early years.
When I entered the Temple, I quickly forgot my parents and my unhappy childhood. In all the years in the Temple, I never healed this childhood pain because I had ignored the life I was currently living and, instead, focused on my past lives. Therefore, a weak place began to grow in my consciousness. A place where I had hidden my secret childhood fears that my father cared more for money than for me. This childhood fear then expanded into my hidden adult fear that I cared more for success and adulation than I cared for my Soul. These fears bonded with my thoughts and a powerful engram grew, which unconsciously molded my behavior and my life. Because it was an unconscious fear, it was even stronger, as I could not monitor it. My challenge in my initiation was to find this hidden enemy so that I could disarm it with my love force, but I had forgotten the unconditional love of my Higher Selves and the power this love held. Gradually, I became lost in my secret fears of corruption.
My Divine Complement came to me to remind me that my physical body, my matter, was only the grounded portion of my Spirit. What I had to do to heal my earth-bound vessel was to connect it, consciously, to my myriad spiritual vessels. I was not a physical being having a spiritual experience. I was a spiritual being having a physical experience. With that knowledge, I could remember to love my grounded vehicle, love my mother, my father and, most important, love my Spirit.
As I returned to re-live my vision, I would remember that I was a Multi-dimensional Being. This time I would maintain the memory of and communication with my true, Multidimensional SELF. I would keep continuous connection with my sixth dimensional self in Arcturus, my fifth dimensional self in Venus, and my Divine Complement.
I would hold the anchor in the third dimension while my Complement was anchored in the fourth. While I took responsibility for the daily activities of Temple life, she would direct the flow of Spirit as we grounded our fifth dimensional Venusian life in the foundations of the Temple and blessed it with the unconditional love from our Source in Arcturus. With this alignment, fear could not take root in my consciousness. I was now aware of my fear, and I could keep it as a guardian to remind me to stay connected to my SELF, guard against corruption and surround myself with love.
I heard my Divine Complement’s voice, Allow the Love from within to meet the Love from without in a joyous union of Spirit into Matter.’
I smiled inside my heart. Yes, I would allow her love into my physical body. In that way, we could become merged while I still held a third dimensional form. Together we would gestate, nurture, and protect the Temple of my vision with unconditional love. My Divine Complement would be kept close in my heart and mind to remind me that I was of my SELF. Together we could transcend the separation and limitations of the third dimension. I was ready now.
‘Yes, I will go with you, I spoke to the King. We will build a Temple for healing and enlightenment so that all who enter may learn that love is stronger than fear, and Spirit is alive in all matter!’
In response, I heard the lid of the sarcophagus begin to raise.
(above from Reconstructing Reality by Suzan Caroll)
I thank you for listening to my story. In closing, I encourage you to remember that our greatest enemy is the fear that we have hidden deep inside. If that fear can be brought to our awareness, it can be loved free. Please, accept now the greatest lesson of my life: Love is stronger than fear, and Spirit is alive in all matter!
I direct you now to the Arcturians, who guide us all into the Light.
We the Arcturians, thank you for returning to our Corridor.
We also thank RaHoTep for telling his story.
We shall return in a few weeks of your time,
so that Matia may tell her story, as well.
The Journey Through the Arcturian Corridor continues next month.
Public Channeling of July 1, 2009
Balls of Light
Drops of Blessing for the New Seminar Room
Magnetic Energy of the New Age Pours In
I am Melek Metatron. From the spheres of El’Shaddai I greet you with the words OMAR TA SATT. No matter what you regard yourself as, whether as lightworker, as human child, as angel on Earth, as avatar on Earth, that which you are is the essence of the all-embracing love in yourself, the divine light which shines and carries you through this difficult time in the duality.
The Eye of God, Melek Metatron, is here with the energy of the 36 High Councillors of the Light. You can feel it by going within. The Lord of Hosts conveys the message to you: If you look without you dream, if you look within you awaken. If you look into the Divine Reality you stay awake. This staying awake, the realization that you are more than just human, that you carry everything in you that you need in order to live on Earth as divine avatar, is very important in this time. You feel the energies of the divine field, you feel the energies of Metatron when you open yourself inside. Devotedly and without doubt you become aware that more than any word it is the bearing power of Metatron which guides you to realizing what is important.
Just as we work with you in the collective it has happened. For we search in this collective, in your Light Bodies for what you need the most. With this gathering of today it is strength. Allow yourself to be guided by the energies of Metatron in this sometimes so difficult time for you, my dear human child. Allow yourself to be guided by the energies of the angels who have hurried here in order to support you, to sit at your feet, to honor and respect you. The ones who love you so immeasurably are here. This is a very special moment. For they are the moments of Divine Reality and truth which move more than you will ever understand. This movement guides you into the deep realization of who you are, into the act of change and into strength.
That is why Melek Metatron asks you: Breathe the energy of the angels into yourself, the light of love. Let yourself fall and trust. Let yourself fall in the certainty that this is a special moment for you. Look into the depth of your Self, call all your chakras together and expand yourself. See the divine light, how it blazes, the divine light that you are. Sense the essence of your soul. All your chakras form themselves to a big golden ball, shining like a sun, vehemently like a sun. You are sunk deep in yourself. Even though you hear the words of Metatron you sense that the essence, the energy flows into you. Now decide with the intention of love that your channels open. Give the permission that we may work just as is right and good for you on all levels. You carry the Heart Ray in you. Melek Metatron asks you to activate it with the intention of love.
In front of your third eye a ball appears. It is filled with green light. Put it on the tip of your Heart Ray and connect with your physical body and your cells. Now release this ball filled with light and watch how this ball finds its way in your physical body, where it lingers and emits energy, where your cells need this. While you are witness to this the lights from the Divine Reality will let the energy of PRADNA – strength – flow into you through your channels.
All the pictures that you can see with your inner eye are messages from the Divine Reality. Trust this. The ball filled with light carries on vibrating while you are going to see a further ball in front of your third eye which is filled with pink light. With your Heart Ray you take it and the Heart Ray brings this ball into your emotional level. There you release it and it finds its way. Where this energy is needed let it flow. In the meantime you are being filled with PRADNA, with strength, for your emotional body. Here, too, take up contact with your emotional body, with your feelings.
While the ball filled with light emits the energy visualize a further ball with blue light. Use your Heart Ray again. The Heart Ray brings this ball into your mental body. Again you are witness to how the ball finds its way. Take up contact with your mental body, with your spirit, your thoughts. Again you experience the PRADNA from the Divine Reality at the same time.
While the ball filled with light finds its way you visualize a further ball with golden light. With the Heart Ray this ball is brought into your spiritual body and there you are witness to your self. You are being supplied with the highest energies.
So it has happened. You have been supplied with the highest energies from the Divine Reality, in addition with strength which the entities poured into you. The Eye of God looks over you. The Eye of God recognizes you. The Eye of God loves you immeasurably.
You are witness to how here, for the first time here in this room, the messages of Metatron have been announced – with the energy of the 36 High Councillors of the Light. I know how difficult it was for Sangitar. But now it is certain, this room is filled with love, with immeasurable love, joy and peace. With the energy of the New Age, with the energy of Kryon, with the energy of the 36 High Councillors. Now you will bless this room with Melek Metatron, with the Drops of Blessing from the divine Source, and so Melek Metatron asks that you rise.
(A powerful song is played)
Melek Metatron from the spheres of El’Shaddai has directed the messages to you through the medium today. So it has happened. Hear now the message of Kryon. Melek Metatron says goodbye with the words A NI O’HEVED O’DRACH.
I am Kryon of magnetic service. I greet you with the words OMAR TA SATT, friends of the light. Kryon has the task, in this moment, to let the magnetic energy of the New Age flow. While Kryon conveys the message this will happen. The magnetic energy of the New Age is the most important energy for it brings about the exchange. The magnetic energy takes care of your cells. It fills you with life, with health, with joy, with abundance, with love.
That is why Kryon asks: Go into the depth once more and open your channels with the intention of the all-embracing love. This time Kryon will let the magnetic energy flow through your third eye. After you have given the permission let this happen. Again and again Kryon and the spiritual world speak of the changes in this duality, in this time, and more and more these changes are perceptible. Thus much happens on your planet and the preparations for the change of ages have long since begun. It is important that you realize the necessitiy of these signs of the times, even though you sometimes do not understand these changes. Bid them welcome for they are a gift and a blessing for you personally and for the human beings on Earth.
With this I would like to tell you that you – here – have been called as witnesses of the times for you will also be the reporters when the change has been carried out. For this you are respected, honored and loved immeasurably. There are changes on all levels. Thus there have been changes in your latitude. The weather has changed, the air, bearer of the energy, has changed, certain smells have changed. Also, a few famous human beings have left this planet. They had a great task. Also, the grief because these human beings have gone joins human beings so close together in a collective that from that an immeasurable love and a connection to the collective grid of love, the planetary grid of love develops. Thus we shall speak about changes more and more often so that you will understand more and more. You will know what needs to be done at each change which strikes you. Trust the divinity in you, the ability which you carry within. So feel now how the magnetic love energy flows into you and lets you live.
So many human beings, whether they were famous personalities or not, had to leave this planet because their soul decided thus. Our entire sympathy – but hear the message of Kryon, use the word sympathy not pity – our entire sympathy belongs to all those who carry grief in their heart.
Your soul has decided to experience the change of ages. We need you, my dear lightworker. And so Kryon says, let us speak the words together:
Ehyeh Asher Ehyeh, Ehyeh Asher Ehyeh, Ehyeh Asher Ehyeh, So’Ham.